Help

So i think i have a situation... and its a very strange one.  A friend of mine(a male), he told me to be ready to break up with my boyfriend because he thinks that he'll cheat on me while hes in college.  He thinks that he will become a partier and will have sexual relations with a whole crap ton of girls.  First... no.  Second... he doesnt drink... and as sad as this sounds he doesn't have any friends (in college.)  My friend Steph tonight when i told her this said... and i quote... "I think he likes you..."  Well the thing is... this friend of mine has said that he's Bisexual...  but then sometimes he says hes gay... I dont really know what he is.  But i don't know if he likes me or not... he wouldnt let me walk on the road and kept saying "its the gentleman thing to do..."  Alriiiight.  I don't even know what to say or think...  I dont feel the same way...  but he doesnt make any sense.  We went like a week without talking and he was super mad at me... then the next minute hes like all nicey nicey... like whaaat.  He's like my step dad...  I just don't get it.

U.S.A ...maybe not

I am ashamed to call myself an American citizen... there i said it.  We go around bombing everybody and we cant even solve our own problems.  Its as if they think that all the bad things will instantly go away if we bomb everything single thing.  Like for real?  I mean yes... Syria did drop a poisonous gas on its people and killed thousands upon thousands of people... BUT do you think that if you just drop a few bombs that you are only going to kill the bad guys?  No... you are going to kill thousands upon thousands of people just trying to get rid of the bad guys... and that might not even work.  I just don't understand anything about politics though.  There is probably some "good" reason on why we should attack, but i still haven't seen it.  I think America tries to overcompensate... land of opportunity and whatnot...  We stopped being the land of opportunity a long time ago.  I don't see why some people want to come to America... i mean i can... in situations like living in North Korea, Iraq, Afghanistan etc.  But otherwise I don't understand.

People. Are. People.

I dont understand.  I don't understand a lot of things... but i really don't understand people.  There's an ex-coworker of Joels who has a HUGE crush on him.  Today we went through the drive through at McDonalds and she was all like "I miss you, you need to come visit me here sometime" HELLOOOOO... GIRLFRIEND IN THE CAR.  It was my car too... so if she comes looking for it... i will be angry.  I went on a jealous girlfriend rant for like 10 minutes... and then i got sad... from her facebook profile... shes pretty.  I'm not worried that he would fall for her... especially what happened after we got home.  But i know that she isn't the first to ever do something like this.  I literally had an old friend tell me to my face that even though i was dating him she was still gonna love him... they had never dated...   I know that I cannot control the minds of teenage girls and whatnot... but i can be that jealous girlfriend...  I mean... to an extent.  I just worry... Joel has been the longest relationship that I've ever been into... I dated a guy for 6 days in 6th grade... i dont really count that relationship though.  I dont know what i would do if he wasn't a key role in my life. My parents are key roles... they made me who i am... the tall quiet jealousy girl that i am.  Joel is my boyfriend... we have already talked about getting married and having kids... I havent done that with anybody before.  we've talked about what would happen if we were to ever break up... and it looks as if we would never just be friends... no matter how bad i would want to be.  I want a relationship like Freddie Mercury and Mary Austin.  They dated and then when he turned gay they stayed the best of friends.  He was even the god parent of her first son.  If anything were to happen between Joel and I... i want our friendship to be like theirs.  I want him to be that guy that even though we are no longer dating that i can tell everything i want to him.  I want our kids (even though they would be with other people of course) to be friends.  Anyway enough of that and stuff... i had a really good day.  I played video games and watched movies and painted my nails.  But i think it is time for me to go to bed now.  Goodnight!

Here I Go Again

After the nice weekend I had with my boyfriend...it must sadly come to an end.  He leaves for Omaha again tonight around 7.  I can say that I have gotten the best nights sleep these past 3 days.  He's a hoot.  Theres a Dr. Seuss quote that i pinned to my pinterest board... and it really is true.  We stop ourselves once and awhile look into each others eyes and go "We're a weird couple..."   I haven't got to do what i wanted to with him though.  I want to play video games with him.  Until he has to pack up and leave.  Play COD like we used to.  We used to play it for hours!  I would play with him over PSN but... I don't have a good enough internet box thingie... (yes, girl vocabulary at its finest)  I just hope I never have to go back up there and pick him up again... that was the longest (or what seemed like the longest) road trip of my life.  But you know... i think that this time when he leaves... I'll be okay.  I had to help him apply for a job at a walmart in Omaha.  I hope he gets the job... it would be nice for him to save up for the things he needs.  He really needs transportation... that is a big thing.  But food is nice too.  I bought new fingernail polish to keep myself busy with while he's gone again.  I also bought 6 James Bond movies, have to really clean my room and get it prepped for college myself, and i have a trip to Missouri in the mix.  So i think that i will be fine.  You know... Glee starts up in a couple of weeks... I will have nobody to watch it with... sad face.  I feel like i should stop going on and on, i should probably get out of bed and spend some time with that boyfriend of mine!