People. Are. People.

I dont understand.  I don't understand a lot of things... but i really don't understand people.  There's an ex-coworker of Joels who has a HUGE crush on him.  Today we went through the drive through at McDonalds and she was all like "I miss you, you need to come visit me here sometime" HELLOOOOO... GIRLFRIEND IN THE CAR.  It was my car too... so if she comes looking for it... i will be angry.  I went on a jealous girlfriend rant for like 10 minutes... and then i got sad... from her facebook profile... shes pretty.  I'm not worried that he would fall for her... especially what happened after we got home.  But i know that she isn't the first to ever do something like this.  I literally had an old friend tell me to my face that even though i was dating him she was still gonna love him... they had never dated...   I know that I cannot control the minds of teenage girls and whatnot... but i can be that jealous girlfriend...  I mean... to an extent.  I just worry... Joel has been the longest relationship that I've ever been into... I dated a guy for 6 days in 6th grade... i dont really count that relationship though.  I dont know what i would do if he wasn't a key role in my life. My parents are key roles... they made me who i am... the tall quiet jealousy girl that i am.  Joel is my boyfriend... we have already talked about getting married and having kids... I havent done that with anybody before.  we've talked about what would happen if we were to ever break up... and it looks as if we would never just be friends... no matter how bad i would want to be.  I want a relationship like Freddie Mercury and Mary Austin.  They dated and then when he turned gay they stayed the best of friends.  He was even the god parent of her first son.  If anything were to happen between Joel and I... i want our friendship to be like theirs.  I want him to be that guy that even though we are no longer dating that i can tell everything i want to him.  I want our kids (even though they would be with other people of course) to be friends.  Anyway enough of that and stuff... i had a really good day.  I played video games and watched movies and painted my nails.  But i think it is time for me to go to bed now.  Goodnight!